She Shares – Penny’s Story
I was hit with the shock
Finding out that I had Adult ADHD has been the most liberating thing ever. When I was first told last year, it took a while for me to understand how beneficial this news was because initially I was hit with the shock that I have a brain disorder, but as time has passed, I can’t believe how much i know and understand myself because if it.
Unable to recognise myself a lot of the time and that scared me
When I first found out I had ADHD, it was because i wanted to talk about why I was feeling so odd. I went to a doctor because i assumed my hormones were changing and felt i needed advice on how to manage them. I have always been a very sensitive person, but i was waking up blank and almost numb some days which made me question my character a lot. I had days where i was so demotivated that i felt my passion was fake and suffered from crazy anxiety that I felt I wasn’t able to control. I started feeling like a broken record praying about certain things I needed support with because I always felt like i could and should be pushing myself harder so that I could be better yet didn’t ever get round to it despite how strong the desire was. I was unable to recognise myself a lot of the time and that scared me.
I stopped judging and punishing myself for things that i didn’t understand
Because I didn’t like the idea of mental health medication, I did a lot of research into how to manage ADHD naturally and in doing so, learnt so much about the condition and myself. I had no idea what ADHD was before this and all of my ideas of what it might be were wrong so not only was it interesting to learn about something new but i was understanding so many layers to my personality that i had no idea were connected to it. I stopped judging and punishing myself for things that i didn’t understand and i started to really appreciate my differences and the weird yet wonderful way my brain works. I still have so much to learn but I am just so grateful for how clear my head is (most days lol) I still have off days but i now know why they happen and can keep an eye on my triggers so i am not being my own worst enemy.
Learn to love your brain. It’s actually pretty awesome!!!
ADHD is not a bad thing at all, it only feels bad when it is not managed well so if you know anyone who had ADHD or if you feel you do yourself, please look into the condition and learn to love your brain. It’s actually pretty awesome!!!
My ADHD Story
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